Monday, December 7, 2009
{ 1:13 AM }
Miracles sometimes do happen, once in a while.
I never thought that it would ever change at all. That screwed up character is so embedded in my mind then.
But I guess it came back.
And it's making up to me more than ever.
Although the risk is very high,
but I'm willing to take it.
Because I have nothing to lose,
only fond memories to gain,
and the feeling of being an immense importance to it,
is really wonderful and surreal.
But what a sad love this is.
One that is doomed to end.
Life is truly a masquerade - even in love.
Because behind all that happiness, we are tearing inside.
Because we know it won't last very long.
But it's not something we wanted, it's a dead end. There will be no other options except goodbye.
At least for others, there's a future to look towards to, even if chances are mild.
But ours are near zero. The future is bleak.
Most importantly, it's something we can't choose.
At the end of these 2 years,
our chapter is closed. maybe forever.
I don't want to face such reality. It's way too harsh.
To be frank, I am running away from it now.
And I don't wanna face it.
For now I just want to cherish every moment I have and be grateful to everything that has happened so far.
The heart is healing right now. And that's what matters.
Maybe it'll shatter again in the future.
But that's for us to worry later on.
I don't want to think ahead at all. I just wanna embrace the present.
