Thursday, December 31, 2009
{ 2:02 AM }
It's 31st Dec 2009, last day of the year 2009...
So many things happened this year...hais...
So I would like to uhh, have some sort of closure or sth, not that anyone would bother reading it -.-
But it's a nice ending to everything~ nice ending for 2009
And now its night time, its a very emo period so I have no chance to get kaopei and throw temper lol.
First of all, I am grateful for 3D :D
Though there's alot of incidences and such, it was a joy having you guys, all of you guys.
I felt very relaxed and accepted whenever I'm with 3D, and they're always supportive of each other no matter what,
And I kinda liked 3D's outspoken attitude and bravery and such...
And thank you yeeying and genevieve especially for being such good mates,
you guys are always there for me no matter what and helped me solve all my probs and tahan all my childishness and temperness,
Thank you so much for everything and sorry for the times when we became kp to each other LOL.
I couldn't ask for more :)
I hope next yr we will be able to stick together as one, 4D`09 ftw! :D
And then I'm grateful for AHSChoir,
who is together with me for the past 3 yrs, going on 4,
It's the only way to relieve our stress from studies and such, through singing with your mates,
And I miss that feeling hahas.
Although I had many run-ins with some people,
I've learnt that things cannot be the way one expects it,
And you guys have trained me to be more patient and to be more responsible for my actions,
And even though there are many ups and downs and tumblings and such...
We learn to get up and always put the choir as our priority,
I'm sorry for all the wrong things I've done and my childishness, temper...
And I thank you all for being able to bear with me and guide me the right way...
I love you all :)!
Damn I wanna cry -.-
You may think I'm an idiot la, but if you really do truly think about the past memories and feel it emotionally,
you'll understand...esp at 1.47 am -.- you'll definitely feel it.
The great depression this yr has affected alot of families, including mine.
My dad lost his job this yr and my sis got some kind of weird growth in her stomach....
At first I thought everything was really serious and I felt like the whole world is crashing on me,
Because it was halfway through exams and stuff,
And I got trouble with the school, and then I regretted coming to anglican high because it has such screwed up education system, and YES I did say that I regret and the system is screwed, SUCK ON THAT, I've no idea why I put this as my first choice but now I'm encouraging all my pri sch juniors not to make the same mistake SO anyway,
Then thank god the storm's over.
But halfway through my dad's incident my mom sent me an sms,
telling me not to worry and stuff because she can still provide for us even if dad has lost its job,
and even if it was just a simple sms, I teared up and really wanted to cry but I can't cuz I was with my friends I think...
But anyways, I did it when one of them start to kp me for nth. -.-
And then somehow people got the impression that I'm rich which makes me want to punch them because I'm obviously not,
And I didn't bother explaining myself and was like "ya ya i'm rich"
Those bitches. I hope you will end up with the same situation as I am and maybe you'll shut your farking mouth.
That's when I realise how useless I can be at times like this,
Because I really want to help but there's nothing I can do...with sch and stuff, it's impossible to find jobs esp when I'm under 16.
And I can't really continue so I shall just stop here,
but yeah, I'm glad everything's over,
And I'm just grateful for people who have made me pull through those difficult moments,
always by my side and giving me comfort and advice, helping me move on,
And I think I did grow up, at least a little,
And I'll continue to learn and grow as time passes.
Happy new year's eve everyone :)
May everyone have a great 2010 :)