Wednesday, October 21, 2009
{ 11:24 PM }
This is not home. Not my home.
I'm just asking to live on my own. I can do it. Why won't you guys let me?
When will you all finally let me go? She cannot take care of me forever.
In fact she's doing more harm than good.
Now the relationships I've painstakingly built is damaged.
I'm sorry I can't see her goodwill and intentions towards me
Because it's biasness and I hate it.
I don't mind loneliness because there's no difference when I'm in here.
The difference will be perhaps no more shouting screaming or crying.
Life is just getting more difficult day by day and wouldn't it be better for everyone if I just leave?
No need to cook for me no need to wash for me everything I'll be doing on my own.
No I don't wan you all to come back all of a sudden and disrupt the stability we've obtained.
I prefer my life like this. I don't know why but I just like it. And I want to continue this way, at least till I complete my education.
I can make my own decisions. Even if u want me to get my own money I am very sure I can do it.
But life sucks now and it doesn't need to suck even more.
This is terrible. This conflict will never be resolve.
So don't ask me to help both of them or whatever cause YOU KNOW IT CANNOT WORK.
THE HATRED IS ALREADY THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE.
What can I do? And I don't want to do ANYTHING. Just demolish the bloody heater.
I shall shower without warm water from now on then. Nothing too big about it. I'm not going to touch that bloody thing again.
She blew it up at her. And there is NO CHANCE the harmony we once had will return.
Oh, we are not even living in harmony in the first place. It's just a mask. AGAIN.
Why you guys pretend like its not there? Aren't you escaping from reality?
What hopes can you all harbour? Can't you see the situation now? ITS OVER. Don't bother.
Why make life difficult? Put a separation between us, I don't mind at all.
Cause I'm sick and tired of all these conflicts and I want it all to end.
