Wednesday, July 22, 2009
{ 11:11 PM }
TRUST.
What the hell do you know about it?
What exactly is trust to u?
In P5 i think, I was quite self-conscious.
So when any teachers had bad impression of me, I was quite upset.
Because I know I'm not whatever they though I was and I'm definitely better than that.
But hey, which child likes to be misunderstood and wrongly accused?
and LAST YEAR, I just got enough KP-ed by my own form teacher.
the fact that the welfare has to stay back for noticeboard competitions even though theres a common test tmr,
and the fact that the teacher is not helping in assigning ppl to help. No, i'm not nagging about PEOPLE NOT HELPING OUT like I KNOW YOU ALL R CONCERN ABT TEST so PLEASE STOP SAYING THAT I M UPSET THAT PPL DIDNT HELP AT ALL AND STFU BEFORE I LASH AT U. since when the f did i ever say that? NO PROOF THEN KEEP QUIET! At least WE DID OUR JOB. and thats what truly matters.
I rmbered, cuz we won the noticeboard competition we had a free packet of weird choco sticks, den after psycho-ing everyone in the class to get one, I left it on the teacher's table for my teacher to indulge the rest of it.
Ah. She come in, ask "who put this packet here?" then I raised my hand la. Den she ask "why never eat finish" den im like "teacher, the rest are for you to eat"
Guess what she said.
"WAH, NEVER REMOVE IT AWAY, STILL ASK ME HELP YOU EAT THE REST?"
and the great thing was that THIS CONVERSATION WAS IN CHINESE :D
NB. KNN.*(I didnt say what that means, so pls dont accuse ty ^.^)
Hais.
It's so hard living ur life to please other people. People who don't trust you.
Which is precisely the reason why I'm gonna stop pleasing other people liao.
There are enough "i-dont-trust-anyone" ppl in the world. Why don't people start trusting one another?
To me,
To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved.
The glue that holds all relationships together - including the relationship between; the leader and the led is trust.
So ytd, I called my mom or my mom called me (OMFG I MISS MY FAMILY), I was like, "妈妈, 有老师不喜欢我啊"
Den my mom was like "啊， 那你伤心吗?"
If i was still my old-self, I'll be like YES I AM, but I replied...
"哎呀, 谁管她。 去她妈的。 她不喜欢就不喜欢， 对我没什么影响."
I feel so good saying it. ahaha :D and the best thing was that my mom supported me and said,
对! 就是要有这种态度! 她要说就让她说吧! 管她喜不喜欢.'
Usually mothers would like their child to become teacher's pets because they wanna curry flavour with them to enable their child to get into whatever school they want.
But that fact it, i rather be disliked and have bad reputation because I stood up for something I was wrongly accused of than to be liked because I'm being a teacher's pet.
U know what? people who already has a definite impression of you in their minds JUST from a few experiences with you are immature to me.
It's sad because there was no trust. It takes a long time to understand someone.
How can one just judge based on a few pessimistic moments?
Don't TALK TO ME ABOUT FIRST IMPRESSION. If first impression is so important, why bother thinking abt the future? SO WHAT if one has a good first impression when in the future that person is gonna SUCK anyway? So ironic.
What I think is the most attractive part of my mother is her headstrong attitude.
And I think more people should be like her instead of bowing their heads to so called the higher authority people.
Pls do not misunderstand, im not stereotyping.
I can name some fine and wonderful teachers and name some "teachers".
And recently, I posted a new inquiry into "YOUR VOICE MATTERS".
As what all the students say, your voice matters is never gonna matter abt ur voices.
And face it, all the students in every school has something to complain about their school.
And they usually wouldn't like it in their first 3 years.
ITS A GENERAL THING, SO I DONT SEE THE REASON WHY ADULTS ARE REPROACHING TO US ABT HOW GOOD THE SCHOOL IS AND HOW WE MUST TREASURE IT.
ITS NOT THAT WE DONT KNOW. ITS JUST A MATTER OF TIME.
and when we are sec4 and realising our demise, we WILL UNDERSTAND and DEVELOP FEELINGS.
YOU DARE SAY YOU DIDNT COMPLAIN ABT UR SCHOOL WHEN U WERE YOUNG?!
no right? SO WHATS THE PROB. juvenile delinquency. FACE IT omg.
And the inquiry i posted was abt "WHY STUDENTS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO WEAR SLIPPERS IN SCHOOL"
and I dunno why r people STILL MAKING A FUSS OUT OF IT. OMG JUST FORGET IT, ITS ALREADY SETTLED.
I'M DOING A GOOD DEED BY ADDRESSING ABT SOMETHING THE ENTIRE STUDENT BODY WANTS TO ADDRESS. WHAT IS UR PROB, SCHOOL?!!
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG. IN FACT I THINK I'VE DONE A GODDAMN RIGHT THING. IM PROUD OF IT.
Mr.yeow is kind enough to explain it to me in msn. SO MEANS ITS SETTLED.
SO I DONT WAN TO HEAR ANYTHING ABT IT. because im not gonna say i was extra or made a mistake. dont even think of me saying such stuffs. i wont. im not such a retard.
it is not our responsibility to know and understand abt the world ur living in.
but it is URS to guide us along and help us understand and fit in into society.
But what makes someone more inspiring than the others is that they emphasized on the importance trust and understanding of children and retaining the innocence ANY HUMAN HAS ONCE THEY CAME OUT FROM THEIR MOTHER'S WOMB.
Its not our fault that we have lost your trust,
but Its yours for not trusting us,
its YOUR loss, not ours.
