Sunday, June 21, 2009
{ 12:46 AM }
I don't know who to trust. I don't know who to believe in anymore.
I may be dumb and look really retarded but...
I find it sad and disappointing to know that,
Hardly anyone would ever know what's happening to my scrwed up life.
I don't think my family deserves any of this...ridiculous problems.
I don't think any of my family member deserves to be a victim of this problem.
They've worked so f-ing hard for everything and just when everything seemed alright.
I know I can be independent. I definitely can.
I just need to find a way to remove this tugging feeling in my heart.
Of loneliness, of worrysome, of scare...
It is weird to realise how much feelings I have for the people around me. Feelings I didn't even notice before.
I just want to believe in someone. I just want to draw strength from someone.
I really want to overcome this alone. And I'm gonna try. I did it before and I can do it again.
God, please help my family. Please help me.