Sunday, November 9, 2008
{ 8:53 PM }
im going to china.
my final decision. with my sister.
i remembered how i was in tears on the phone hearing my him shouting n threatening me n stuffs.
and then her telling me that it was okay that i don't go.
they missed me. much more than i do.
and this made me feel really guilty~
one of my besties friend (not gonna tell ya XD) says that family is also important too.
of course. i do miss them, alot...
and even if im happy with myself being here, they r not...
how can i be so selfish?
man i m piece of sai =.=
n im not gonna let my sister sit alone in the aeroplane anymore =)
i wanna be on that flight with her and laugh, joke, n talk,
n be someone in who she can confided in...
this is like, so far, the bestest yr i've bonded with her...
u have no idea how distant we were all these yrs, n only recently i can feel that at least i had someone with me...
n i know that i cant stop stealing her stuffs =.= she got so many stuffs to steal ma~
its not like i had a choice in which both sides r good...
is like, very zuo you wei nan lor...
if only my life was as simple as everyone's, at least where aeroplanes n tickets need not be considered...
and overseas trip will be only one week~
my life around here, has so much meaning to me, becuz i lived here all my life?
too much meaning, that is so oblivious to me...
hais, im in such a dilemma~
of course i admit, the reason i wanna go is becuz i wanna go is also for future choir trips in june.
im very sure, my parents wouldnt allow me to go for any trips next year if i didnt join them this yr~ =.=
im not skipping any choir...
if there wasn't an upcoming performance, i swear to god that i would skip...
but there is, sadly,
like, i suck very badly liao, so i need more training =.=?
so seriously, to have like, them in somewhere else, not being with me daily,
its NOT COOL AT ALL~
like WHY THE EFFING HELL DOES EVERYONE SAYS THAT?
i mean i would really trade almost anything to exchange lives with u people~
im not saying that my life sucked as bad as other ppl~
but i dont think its cool at all, seriously. im sorry.
what's holding me back is what's preventing me from moving on...
but I can't hold on to it forever.
sometimes, we have to let go of it...
and letting it go may be the most beautiful thing one would have done on earth.
so im going on man,
cuz i know if i didnt go this time,
i wouldnt have any determination to go on next time...
anyways, u all would receive presents from me XD
BECUZ EVERYTHING IN CHINA IS GODDAMN CHEAP XD
come on, u can get a pair of earrings for 2 dollars instead of 10 dollars,
u all will be hell grateful to me, i promise =.=
anyone needs to buy any stuff =.=?
notebooks, pens? china got hell lots of it~
just say "ni bu gei wo na wo jiu zou le"
den dey'll be like "hao hao hao suan shi ni de ba, hui lai"
COOL RIGHT? i know XD
it'll be fun, but i dont think im seeing the dead emperor~
I DONT WISH TO SEE THE DEAD MAN =.=
i dont CAREEEEEE n cannot be BOTHERED to even seeee him
or rather, TO EVEN THINK ABT IT~
no more coffins n tombs, i had enough in the china trip wif the school =.=
time for some ShOpPiNg n loads of fun xD
crap.
im gonna take air china again =.=
