Saturday, August 2, 2008
{ 1:50 PM }
had 2.4 run today...LOLS...
aiya i got lousy position la =.= at least improved from last year...
wan to know my position right? haiya =.=
77 LA 77 LA 77 LA 77 LA 77 LA 77 LAHAPPY =.=?
last year got 100+ ok...improved by 30 positions leh XD!!
but my sista danica improved by 100+ positions T.T
last year 200+ this year 100+ le lehh~~~ pro seh !!! ^^
i only heard tat valerie got 1st for our lvl, serene 2nd, den i dunno
jacq got 9th position btw :D WOOOOTS~~!!
LINYING IS 10 T.T SIAO LA U T.T
dunno boys la =.= shud be junwen n zhenju top few i guess o.o
hais ytd kena lectured by choir....
jojo cried, rachel cried, i cried
yeeying eugenia no cry o.o
JIAN QIANG DE NU REN~~~
actually before we kena scolded i already dammm guilty...
and i like keep saying "we cannot late next time liao, we cannot late next time liao"
den when the lecture came, im like, aiya how to take it lor =.=
i already in heart so guilty n apologetic lia0, den with lecture i kaboom
den i oso know that we disappointed the whole alto section and SLs ...T.T
but this is definitely, a wake-up call for me la...
i lately havent been close with hilary they all...
and only recently i got to know how they feel about, US
and the alto section wasnt very pleased with us =.= as i presumed...
i seriousy, seriouslyyy felt veryyyyy veryyy guilty =.=
so today after 2.4 i went to apologise to our SLs T.T
i was aware that im not punctual...but becuz everyone was like, looking as though nothing has happened so i just follow suit...
which i tink i shudnt have done it...
its hard u know, becuz i love choir so much...
and to think that becuz of us, there r punishments and stuff being imposed on, we upset the entire choir and embarassed the altoosss
and we hurt them so much, i felt sooooooo angry with myself...
why did we did it in the first place...
we really really, DIDNT WANT IT TO HAPPEN AND DIDNT MEAN FOR THESE PPL T.T
we are seriously very very very sorrryyy to those who r angry...im very traumatised by it too, really really sad n depressed for the entire day T.T
im gonna make cards for everyone T.T i just dunno how to clear my conscience...
and ********* has been scolding us behind our backs about this matter...
ya i know its our fault...
but its abit backstabbing, considering the fact that she was like, suddenly stick with us just now before the lecture...
and after the lecture she kept scolding us behind our backs...instead of encouraging us to not make the same mistake...
and yes, dont tink that i duno wad u said, I KNOW WHAT U SAID and someone TOLD ME ABOUT IT, and if i was not in a good mood today, i will call u immediately and SHOUT INFONT OF UR FACE
ok la, im in no position to say her actions are backstabbly, but treat this as a takeback call
i mean, if u tink us as THAT WAY, WHY BOTHER MIXING WITH US IN THE FIRST PLACE?
or rather, we didnt want u to mix with us, u just, COME IN SUDDENLY and looked as though u r part of us,
not saying that we r a clique that doesnt accept others...
we want the entire sec 2 batch to bond well, seriously
but then, the fact that u BACKSTABBED US after this matter, DEMORALISE US instead of spurring us on, made us, or rather, ME think that ur backstabbing
i regretted fighting for u when someone prankcalled u and scolded u on the phone...
now i see the reason why that person does that...
though i tink its still wrong =.=
i seriously, will not BOTHER about u ANYMORE~~
i've had enough for these few weeks le okays, with my class with my friends with my studies with my CCA,
and now, im stuck with YOU
u know, u might be unhappy that alot of ppl hates u, and u relied on ur CCA instead for moral support...
but u cant just, totally rely on us, without changing ur attitude,
cuz in the end, u will make ur CCA hate u also
u complain "u know how suck my life is? my class hates me. im sad. why my life so unfortunate?"
guess what, EVERYONE goes through that ok, and all u do is COMPLAIN without finding out the dam problem
if u saw that everyone is having negative thinkings abt u, then the problem lies WITH YOU, not the class...
and u r supposed to find it, change it, and resolve it...
not taking that qian bian attitude and COME TO UR CCA N SHOW IT OFF AGAIN.
u know how, sad i feel when u were actually talking bad behind our backs?
imagine tat if u actually stayed back, came in the room and COMFORT us when u found that EVERYONE WAS CRYING,
our opinions n impressions of u will IMMEDIATELY change...
u didnt make it change, instead, making it WORST
but, i wont, becuz that im thinking negatively of u den i will hate whatever u do or treat u badly...
cuz i dont think that hurting someone can make me happy...
ur not the first one who pissed or hurt me off so badly anyway...
theres a more VERY-KNOW-HOW-TO-HURT-PPL-VERY-BADLY in my *****
but still, somehow, i will want to make him satisfied if i could
be aware of ur actions, seriously,
cuz by saying these, im already being kind enough...
i dont think those hot-headed ones will tell u such stuffs
they will MAKE UR EARDRUMS burst cuz they will scream at you =.=
calling someone stupid wont make u any smarter
calling someone ugly wont make u any prettier
and ruining someone's life certainly wont make u any happier...
all to hope for is to just solve the problem ahead and MOVE ON
its better to be a friend than an enemy...my mom came back ytd. surprisingly without me knowing it =.=
hahas, im happy la of coz =) hoorayeeess~
but she leaving back to china in the next 2 days =.=
fweakkkkk =.= oh well...
