Saturday, December 19, 2009
{ 2:27 AM }
Hais...
Don't know what to do now...
Very confused about everything...
Don't know who to believe or what to do now... Or how I'm feeling.
Just want to shut the world outside and stay isolated for the moment...
Need to consider some things seriously.
Today is farewell, should be something happy...
Ok happy's not the right word, bittersweet?
But now my mood is very unstable like I'm gonna do something stupid soon,
which I obviously wouldnt. Retarded ppl never admit they're retarded, same principal, people who's about to do sth stupid wouldnt admit that they're gonna do sth stupid.
Lol sometimes when I'm feeling super kaobei and I see people who kept saying they will do something stupid but never actually does it, I'll be like "DAMN WOULD YOU JUST DO IT -.-?!" HAHAHAHAS, super mean but HONESTLY, its so annoying. Like, won't do then keep quiet la, so chao for what -.-?
Hais, and I thought everything would turn out well eventually...
Me and my own naive thinking of a happy ending like fairytales do...
Ha, but I chose to be naive. My bad.
Eyes gonna be farking puffy the next day I swear. Don't even feel like sleeping, just wanna stay up the whole night and think.
It trains the brain cells too, not that I want to.
Whatever. Don't wanna think about it.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
{ 6:16 PM }
xiia0manman is tearing up again.
Damn, feel like vomiting now. Great. Stomachache + vomit is the best combo.
Monday, December 7, 2009
{ 11:07 PM }
Hello :D
It's been centuries since I posted pictures.
So I'm gonna post pictures -.- yeah you've guessed it~
There's like quite alot of pic from long long time ago -.- so yeah~
Enjoy :D
LOL, we paid like, $5 each to get this bloody photo in which I totally regret now cuz I could have snapped it on my hp. But whatever, BODYWORLD 3D TEAM LOL -.-
The centre's mascot, the T-rex. Dunno where that balls-flying around thing went to.
HAHAHAS camwhoring lol. Everyone looks happy :D i guess.
PRINCE EDWARD ROAD!!! SINCE when did SG have such charming road :D?
Me and YY's sushi buffet after chinese O level :D LURVEEE SUSHI OMG T.T
UDON :D but i was like BLOODY full so I can't finish it =( sorry, totally regretted it now!
Our dessert :D LYCHEE MOCHI :D they don't have ichigo bliss, sad =(
Guess what I saw while walking up to school by the simpang way :D?
CHIO WHITE MUSHROOMS OUT OF NOWHERE? like COOL ONLY??!!
How the hell did it ended up on like the grass -.-? There's a whole lots of it LOLS. Hope its edible :D
Choir camwhore wif yy + nia :D HAHAHAS NIA ACT CUTE XD!
BLOODY ADORABLE OR WHAT MAN! I sewed the two snowflake ears myself :D Hehes! Mr. Toh's bday present!
My IKEA lunch with choir ppl from out IKEA outing :D ONLY $10, NOT BAD OK?! too bad I cant finish the bloody bread, i'm sorry ONCE AGAIN T.T
Nia's bday cake from me and clarice :D! I know its small but the quality and taste DAMN ZAI OK HAHAHAS! Happy birthday dear nia!
I fried salmon + babytomatoes today, mad nice!
And hey, I CAN COOK LOR, got do research one ok LOL!
Ok la honestly, the tomatoes taste better when eaten raw. Sian, watched too much cooking shows, now trying act pro LOL. FAILED T.T~
I'm going to TRY and do my chinese hw.
You have NO IDEA, how much courage and determination and strength I need just to pick up the pen and write a darn sentence.
Currently in siansation right now. Pushing myself le T.T
In the meantime...for those who are free, please visit www.missytaobao.blogspot.com for CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP stuffs ty :D (I know, I'm mass+mad advertising!)
{ 1:13 AM }
Miracles sometimes do happen, once in a while.
I never thought that it would ever change at all. That screwed up character is so embedded in my mind then.
But I guess it came back.
And it's making up to me more than ever.
Although the risk is very high,
but I'm willing to take it.
Because I have nothing to lose,
only fond memories to gain,
and the feeling of being an immense importance to it,
is really wonderful and surreal.
But what a sad love this is.
One that is doomed to end.
Life is truly a masquerade - even in love.
Because behind all that happiness, we are tearing inside.
Because we know it won't last very long.
But it's not something we wanted, it's a dead end. There will be no other options except goodbye.
At least for others, there's a future to look towards to, even if chances are mild.
But ours are near zero. The future is bleak.
Most importantly, it's something we can't choose.
At the end of these 2 years,
our chapter is closed. maybe forever.
I don't want to face such reality. It's way too harsh.
To be frank, I am running away from it now.
And I don't wanna face it.
For now I just want to cherish every moment I have and be grateful to everything that has happened so far.
The heart is healing right now. And that's what matters.
Maybe it'll shatter again in the future.
But that's for us to worry later on.
I don't want to think ahead at all. I just wanna embrace the present.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
{ 3:06 AM }
Bloody hell, its like gonna be 3 am and I'm here blogging wtf.
Ok that's not the point.
Today was a super uber fun day with CLARICE and EUGENIA!!! :D
And me and clarice gave a surprise to nia with a cake :D Hope you love it babe!
Hmm....my "货" for today are one elastic band + slippers from RUBI and a nicer looking face lols.
Nicer looking face eh...I finally went for eyebrow trimming -.-
Like for how many years I've been complaining and whining...thank goodness it is finally THINNER and obviously it looked more decent right.
I pity myself for tolerating damn long with huge horribly formed eyebrows LOL, finally its GONE.
But the entire plucking process was kinda torturous...
When the auntie first pulled that damn hair out...I felt as though the whole world ended -.-
FARKING PAIN OMG~
And the worse thing is that I have to tahan it for quite long because of excessive hair.
So for those who are planning on having your eyebrows trimmed...
don't say I didn't warn you. Just pinch yourself as hard as possible as the person plucks it ^^
We went to eat MANHATTEN FISH MARKET for lunch and went ORCHARD ION to shop :)
The food was not bad...just a teeny weeny bit too similar to fish and co. so...-.- ah heck it, it tastes great.
But I SERIOUSLY do not believe that they actually went all the way to manhatten just to get the bloody fish lol.
I mean fishmarket just downstairs SO EASY TO GET, following human nature/instincts, one will surely just go right down to get the damn fish lol so...ok nvm, as long as the food is good, everything can be overlooked :)
RUBI is having a big sale. Ok maybe not, but somehow, it is jammed packed with loads of women trying on the shoes. So, having like super little shoes, (seriously very little), I bought a pair of nice looking slippers for $17 :D (don't complain money-face freaks, it's bloody cheap already)
And then we shop shop shop...SEPHORA has many nice nice nice cosmetics items and products, which are super mesmerizing and just makes women go crazy somehow.
But thanks to the pricetags, it kinda stopped me from spending a single cent there lol. Nia got a lovely OPI shiny pink nail polish though, it's bloody chio :D
Ah well. Gonna sleep now. Super duper tired.
Monday, November 30, 2009
{ 12:15 AM }
Some people just don't know how to differentiate between ANGRY and DISAPPOINTMENT.
Ok, including myself -.-
But it's really very annoying when someone keeps saying others that you are being angry for something when you are actually disappointed.
It's actually a major difference when you use it in a sentence you know, these two words...
For example, perhaps, "I accidentally say her secret out then she angry liao leh"
GO DIE LA. MAKE PEOPLE SOUND LIKE SHE XIAO QI LIKE THAT LA WALAO EH LOL.
I will NEVER be angry, only disappointed. The only indication to show I am angry is when I am screaming the F word at everyone's faces.
And please don't make such a big fuss out of it when I do that. Don't act as if you've never said it before -.-
As in, it is even MORE disappointing to know that people misunderstood your disappointment as anger and make you sound like some bitch who has temper problems.
Like honestly, can you be more MATURE and UNDERSTANDING -.- it is VERY frustrating ARGH!!!
Ok ba, I think honestly, exposing one's secret is the worst crime I can think of. Or maybe that's for me.
As in, those secrets which are like, DIE DIE CANNOT TELL.
I mean, when someone trusts you enough to tell you, can't you just keep it.
IF you know saying it out will cause MAYHEM, then can't you have peace -.-
Is like, purposely zhao ma fan leh. Somemore drag like other people into it.
But once you've abused someone's trust, that person WILL remember it forever.
Ok maybe not everyone -.- but MOST. Its confirm de. Esp if that person genuinely thought you would actually keep quiet.
There was once an old man, who had a son who was a total bustard. The son likes to abuse people's trust and use it against others, and break any peace. One day, the old man took out a plank of wood and told the son, "whenever you have abused a person's trust, drive a nail into this wood", and so many nails were soon embedded into it. After a few days, the old man once again, told the son, "Now, remove a nail from this wood whenever you have apologised to a person" and soon, all the nails were removed. Then the old man said to the son, "see all these dents and holes? although you've apologised, but whatever you've committed is something you can never change and it will always be remembered, even if you're forgiven already"
It's not like I'm encouraging people to not FORGIVE and FORGET you know?
Honestly speaking, can you actually FORGET it? You can forgive, it's a wonderful thing to do,
but forgetting it? especially when it HURTS you alot? I don't think so. Unless you suffer from memory loss or something like this -.-
It will be there, for sure, and it will not fade so easily.
Not everyone is a saint, but sometimes I've no idea WHY people would just expose one's secret just SO EASILY. My goodness. HOW THE HELL YOU FIND THE CONSCIENCE AND CHEEK TO DO IT?
Is like, I'm overwhelmed by shock FIRST then disappointment because I don't even get why you can do it LOL. SERIOUSLY -.-
Ah anyway, whats done is done. Best solution to solve the problem for both parties is to JUST MOVE ON.
For the exposer, you should just go and die. You're horrible.
Ok joking, just move on lor. If you're forgiven, just be happy with it and don't keep being sad and bring it up in a bid to try and make the person forget what you've done. It wouldn't happen.
For the one being hurt, just move on also. You will remember it for sure, but it's okay and it doesn't matter anymore, so just look towards a BRIGHTER FUTURE :D
HAIS HAIS HAIS. BEST THING IS NOT TO HAVE ANY SECRETS LA WTF. JUST DA SHENG SHUO CHU LAI LA, NO BIG DEAL -.-
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
{ 8:34 PM }
LOL walao eh when I saw these I laughed my ass off la HAHAHAHAs.
ITS LIKE, BLOODY FUNNY LAH WALAO EH~
Like you've finally realised how bored people can be and the stupidity of mankind LOLS.
You guys probably don't get what I mean -.- ok~
LOL what the shyt man!!! "WHY DID THE CHICKEN CROSS THE ROAD" WTF!! and this one more zai, "WHY DO MEN HAVE NIPPLES" HAHAHHAHAHASS!
LOL WHY DOES THE SUN GO ON SHINING??!!!
"WHY MUST PEOPLE DIE?!"
I can just go on you know -.-
LOL again the nipples question. Whats wrong with people nowadays -.-
LOL the last two is like f-ing funny LOL.
You just go google.com, type one word den wait for 1 sec and some options will show up just like the above pictures.
And then, you can all laugh ur asses off cuz I bet got some is like bloody hilarious and damn funny LOLLL!!!!
JUST FOR LAUGHS :D
If you guys didnt laugh, den too bad.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
{ 8:46 PM }
WHY IS EVERY SINGLE PAST/CURRENT/UPCOMING MOVIES NC-16?
IT'S DAMN IRRITATING AND FRUSTRATING MY GOODNESSSSSS!!!
ARGHHHH~~~~!!!
EVERY SINGLE DAMN GOOD MOVIE IS NC-16!!!!!!
PARANORMAL ACTIVITY, NINJA ASSASSIN, SAW (I know its R21), EVERYTHING ALSO NC16 damnnnn bloody annoying!
What will putting the bloody ratings help la? I mean seriously can't they use their BRAINS?
We so called "KIDS" still can watch it online or buy DVDs so whats the freaking point?!
This measure is only encouraging more people to make fake ICs -.- and it is SO not effective,
I mean come on, I've watched all the SAW movies in youtube already -.- if I could watch it, then it means that 10 million underage people out there could watch it too -.-
Now, I can only anticipate for ONE damned movie to come out, and that's new moon zzz.
SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN ALL THE WAY MAN ZZZ~
Finally, the long choir camp is overrrr :D and we had lotsa great memories :D :D :D~~~!!!
Ahh~ I've decided to let bygones be bygones and embrace new future~
Ah well, its not how good or bad life is, its how we live it, so I've decided to live it HAPPILY XD
And bond with the rest of my choir mates~
AHSCHOIR RULES THE WORLD BABE!
Hopefully the intensive practices do help and I believe everyone had put in their best effort yep?
LETS ANTICIPATE FOR ITALY 2010! During MARCH and miss one week of school HAHAHAHA!
SOOOO excited, but I seriously need money because it's bloody expensive and I've no idea how to raise the money in time,
SO ONCE AGAIN, MANJING WANTS TO HAVE A JOB -.-
Sunday, November 15, 2009
{ 11:19 PM }
IGNORANCE IS BLISS
I don't even feel angry that I'm being ostracized and made fun of lol.
In fact, I find it rather hilarious that people are actually WILLING to spend time to talk about me.
I'm so diao-ded LOL like seriously, don't people have other stuffs to do or talk about -.-
But oh well, if it does bring pleasure to them, so be it -.- I seriously don't really care.
IGNORANCE IS BLISS PEOPLE. There are definitely other stuffs more worth our attention.
I DYED MY HAIR :D :D :D :D :D :D
HAHAHAHAHAS. Ok actually I'm quite sad =( cause I was trying to tahan till sec4 before I tried dye-ing it.
Must preserve my virgin hair AHAHA :D and natural hair color!
BUT HOW CAN ONE RESIST THE URGE OF A NEW HAIR COLOR T.T
Oh, mine's the "beauteen" brand from japan, colour is COCOA BEIGE.
Kinda like, browny-golden. It is not very obvious, but also not not-so-obvious.
But I expected a more obvious colour though. I mean, my opinion is that dye hair is to have an obvious change in ur hair color ma. Like, if it has very little difference or same colour THEN DYE FOR WHAT LOL.
Ah oh well, at least its still a different colour :D HAHAHAS.
Yes I kinda went dramatic n freaky over the new hair colour. AIYA can't help it la -.- really super cool, go try it :D
Gonna have CCA for everyday in the next week :D
It's gonna be very exhausting, but we're not having any during december so we're gonna CHIONG and give our best :D
I'm still considering if I should go China for this december holidays LOL.
Like 3 years never go visit my maternal family LOL. IM SO UNFILIAL T.T (is there such a word o.o)
Kinda miss my 14 yr old 170+ cm tall de cousin. SIAOOOOO AHHHHHHHHHH.
Seriously when im in China i just transformed into a dwarf cuz everyone is so bloody tall there T.T OHMYGAWDDDD.
ANY IDEA HOW DEMORALISING AND DEPRESSING IT IS LOL???
I WAN A BEANIE XD! But I need a reason to buy it and an opportunity to wear it -.-
which is only a trip to china will remove my guilt of buying a beanie for nothing LOLLLs.
CONSIDERING :D~~
I NEED A JOB TOO!!!
I have no monayeeee~~~~
Ok I do -.- but that's secured for my future so I NEED MONAYEEEE~~~~
Have been blogshopping recently LOL, like the things are SO CHEAP, REALLY DAMNNNNN CHEAP.
NO WONDER PEOPLE GO CRAZY, like who wouldnt LOL XD
Not only clothes, like cosmetics and facial products are super cheap ahahas :D
AND I FINALLY LEARN HOW TO FULLY UTILISE THE POWER OF THE POSB BANK CARD.
AHAHAHA.
But that card has my WHOLE LIFE savings in it -.- so it's super dangerous. Guess I'm gonna become fully independent on myself soon :D
Which will totally open another chapter in my life.
and I'M LOVIN IT :D
Friday, October 30, 2009
{ 11:09 PM }
THE FOLLOWING POST IS PURELY BASED ON MY OPINION AND ANY SIMILARITIES IS PURELY COINCIDENTAL AND PLS DON'T BE A PETTY DOG AND BE OFFENDED. BE GRACIOUS OK?
Oh here comes my report slip -.- And I'm like focusing on the remarks part lol.
Shall not furthur comment on it. Wasn't what I expected. Lol.
Well, maybe I'm just an immature kid. Shall wait till I grow up then :D
I'm losing my passion in everything. Don't even feel like coming to school.
Singapore's education is screwed. Or maybe only our school.
I mean seriously take a look around, all we produce are muggers, including myself,
and I don't see how THAT can bring us far in the future.
Look at CCHS, most of their students are not very muggish, in fact they look kinda ahlian ahbeng to me,
but yet they scored BETTER than us, and they even got band 1.
I'm obviously sending myself to hell posting this post but whatever.
Other students scold teachers scold schools on their blogs.
I'm just stating an opinion, or rather, a FACT.
Seriously. muggers after muggers after muggers. When will this end?
I think all of us will die in JC la.
In America, students are encouraged to speak up their opinions and voice their views as much as possible.
In Singapore, students who voiced their opinions are condemned by the school and their tone is viewed as RUDE.
WOW. Seriously man. That's probably the reason why americans are usually far more successful than Singaporeans.
Hey, I'm not stereotyping, there are smart people out there of course.
Ya la, like one in a million. LKY is probably the smartest and outwitting guy in Singapore.
And there's one guy in our class that is wickedly smart too.
Why is this school like this one ah...
Really frustrating to the max you know my goodness.
If it wasn't for SOME teachers here or my friends,
I will be home-schooling now.
DAMN I WANT TO STUDY OVERSEAS LOL.
EVERY MIN I STAY IN THIS SCREWED UP SYSTEM THE MORE MUGGISH I BECOME.
and then my brain goes mushy and my head shall become dead.
Sian. No money no money but CHIU *clap clap, clap*
Here is so screwed. Staying here another minute is TORTUROUS (if it is purely based on education)
NOOOOOOO mugging is not the WAYYYY.
Even for special courses like gifted programmes and stuff,
MUGGERS ARE CHOSEN over those like, really genius people.
One example start with I one, in our class.
I can bet with you with my LIFE, he is gonna be very successful in the future.
Definitely more successful than muggers. It scares me to see how many people in our school wore specs.
This is a mugger regime. Die.
